Beyond $tressed.
Since I graduated college I haven't had great paying jobs and I owe a lot more money than I am getting paid and my parents have always helped me because they cosigned. I pay for two of the loans they pay for 1. I pay for my car, gas, car insurance, phone and now health insurance since I am turning 26 this month, groceries once a week for my boyfriend and I and anything else I need. My parents have helped me with really expensive medical bills this past month from getting my blood drawn and an ultrasound which was $325. I have always been able to pay for my car registration. My school payment went up for Penn Foster since I signed up for Semester 2; $60 to $91.66.
This month, for some reason, I do not have enough money to pay my bills and register my car. Id have to pick one or the other. In the real world I would probably have to like sell my body or eggs or something for money but in my world I'm hoping my parents will help. I HATE asking them for help. I'm almost 26 this is ridiculous! why couldn't I have just gone to a cheaper school and gotten a degree that would have gotten me somewhere. ugh I am so stressed I never spend money on myself anymore. I haven't bought any clothes since last year at some point when I bought a pair of jeans because all my other ones got too big. I haven't bought someone family or friend a present in awhile and I feel bad. My boyfriend didn't get much for Christmas. I bought my friend a baby gift this month and apparently I was too poor for that. I never treat myself unless it is getting like an ice tea at the gas station or grocery store. I haven't gone to Starbucks in awhile. I am gold status but I wont be keeping that for next year.
The stress is making me have really sad depressing nightmares where I just cry the whole time because someone close to me has died which causes me to keep waking up. Might be clenching my jaw because TMJ on the left side hurts and I keep having headaches in the morning. This is just way overwhelming and I really don't know what to do. I have to use my Old Navy Credit Card to get groceries for the next couple weeks because I literally cannot take any more money out of my checking. and the credit card isn't even my own its attached to my parents account because old navy denied me one because I don't make enough money versus the amount of debt I owe.
Life is hard. I just want a puppy.
On a side note my boyfriend is getting me a new 27 inch Asus computer screen for my birthday and a nice SteelSeries gaming mouse since the mouse I have now is ancient. AND PAX was a blast minus getting a horrible cold, thanks to my boss, and it lasting like two weeks plus allergies. I got a game for free by accident. Called KONA. its a really cool game, check it out on steam, it is early access.
I'm just gonna go stress out some more and do school work, make gluten free peanut butter cookies, and laundry.
p.s. I cant wait to go fishing. (that is mackerel)
This month, for some reason, I do not have enough money to pay my bills and register my car. Id have to pick one or the other. In the real world I would probably have to like sell my body or eggs or something for money but in my world I'm hoping my parents will help. I HATE asking them for help. I'm almost 26 this is ridiculous! why couldn't I have just gone to a cheaper school and gotten a degree that would have gotten me somewhere. ugh I am so stressed I never spend money on myself anymore. I haven't bought any clothes since last year at some point when I bought a pair of jeans because all my other ones got too big. I haven't bought someone family or friend a present in awhile and I feel bad. My boyfriend didn't get much for Christmas. I bought my friend a baby gift this month and apparently I was too poor for that. I never treat myself unless it is getting like an ice tea at the gas station or grocery store. I haven't gone to Starbucks in awhile. I am gold status but I wont be keeping that for next year.
The stress is making me have really sad depressing nightmares where I just cry the whole time because someone close to me has died which causes me to keep waking up. Might be clenching my jaw because TMJ on the left side hurts and I keep having headaches in the morning. This is just way overwhelming and I really don't know what to do. I have to use my Old Navy Credit Card to get groceries for the next couple weeks because I literally cannot take any more money out of my checking. and the credit card isn't even my own its attached to my parents account because old navy denied me one because I don't make enough money versus the amount of debt I owe.
Life is hard. I just want a puppy.
On a side note my boyfriend is getting me a new 27 inch Asus computer screen for my birthday and a nice SteelSeries gaming mouse since the mouse I have now is ancient. AND PAX was a blast minus getting a horrible cold, thanks to my boss, and it lasting like two weeks plus allergies. I got a game for free by accident. Called KONA. its a really cool game, check it out on steam, it is early access.
I'm just gonna go stress out some more and do school work, make gluten free peanut butter cookies, and laundry.
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