Let's Digress
I completely forgot I had another blog after I graduated from college. I used livejournal all the time in high school and I don't think I did too much blogging in college, although I wish I had, but I used that one temporarily because it was under my school email and after things with Anthony I guess I just wanted a fresh blog. I was too busy in college getting my Bachelor of Science Medical Biology degree. Yes I am proud of it I worked really hard. I may not be a doctor but I love the job I have and I feel like I make a difference in animals and clients lives every day. Being a veterinary nurse, which is the new term now, is incredibly hard grueling task you have to know just as much as the veterinarian. You are basically their second brain and have to do most of the work while they do the things we legally cant. Techs can do just about everything except for surgeries but we do dentals all the time. And we can't diagnose but we certainly help the vet get to the diagnosis. When I get licensed I will have two degrees. Whoot more money?!
I digress.
http://madxhatter42.blogspot.
re reading it totally brings back some memories before Corey and I dated. Basically job searching, being denied from vet school which is harder to get into than medical school, and dating Anthony.
I mean we had some great times dating then not dating and being "friends". But no really we were better off friends and just hanging out and fooling around no strings attached. I totally was in lust with him at first because well our chemistry was phenomenal but I knew it wasn't going to be more than that after awhile. We had a flirty personality with each other. It is what it is. He's very attractive and every girl he meets knows it and he is like a lady magnet. Every time we went anywhere it was all these beautiful girls hitting on him left and right. That's why I was shocked he even wanted to date me because I am just kind of average but we had a load of stuff in common. All of our nerd stuff and we both loved to cook well he did and did it very well and I loved to bake. It was nice to be cooked for. He introduced me to some awesome video games and if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have been as interested into going to PAX as much as I was when I went the past two times. And he was quite diverse in his traveling that he did growing up which was awesome and he has great taste. I do all the cooking now with Corey which is fine I have gotten a lot better. We just had a nice connection. When Corey broke up with me for a little bit and I went "Corey Crazy" and I will admit I was nuts but when people are really upset they do stupid crazy shit without thinking really. Anthony was going through a real rough patch and I was trying really hard to be there whilst I was going through my crazy rough patch. He wanted to hang out a lot and we did and such but it was different this time because all I wanted was Corey. He was being really nice about everything though. We were there for each other. Then corey and I got back together and Anthony wanted us to just meet in public which was fine whatever he wanted. We would meet up once a month mostly for breakfast and just catch each other up. We'd still text HERE AND THERE but not as much. He has a busy lifestyle. Then he told me he had gotten some help and had met a girl and he looked so much happier. He was so upset for awhile that I felt really bad for him. I hate seeing my friends in pain. I congratulated him and when we would meet up I would always ask him how him and the woman were and things were always great which was wonderful. He had really found someone special and it made me happy. And id tell him corey and I were great and we are. Then apparently his gf sees things in whole different way and flipped out on me via Facebook. Apparently asking someone what type of mattress they had, whilst my boyfriend and I were shopping for one is weird. I'm pretty sure I asked several people that question. Yes I laid on his bed ALOT, before you guys even knew each other, and his mattress is great because I LOVE pillow tops so I asked him the brand. THAT IS IT. I was not insinuating anything. Most people would see that as not a weird question. Then I told him about a funky dream I had about him, not a fantasy a weird ass dream. That's it I cant help what I dream. I've dreamt about my boyfriends roommate before that was worse. I dream about people who are in my life and I told him because there used to be a joke at Ruby's when my friends worked there with him about people thinking he was gay. In fact I joked about him with that when we just became friends him being my "gay best friend" and he thought it was funny. Obviously did not mean it, it's called a joke Some people just don't have humor.
I digress again.
Any who got bitched at and harassed by a girl I have never even met and who I totally supported Anthony on because he was HAPPY and that was IMPORTANT to me. Didn't realize she would end up controlling him and change who he is. He's happy awesome power to you but when people change in a relationship its really unfortunate. Sometimes love can blind us. I have lost more friends by people getting in relationships. And its happened again. I don't care if you marry her and bare her children, you are not the same person you once where to me. She literally is talking for you. When she told me to back off in a dramatic way I did without a damn peep. I said I got three day PAX tickets because I knew you would find that awesome because I know its something you would love to do one day and then I said Happy Birthday to you and apparently that makes me a stalker. I don't go to ruby's so I don't have to see you and I don't hunt people down to get in touch with you and I get blocked on Facebook. So for 9 months I could really care less then I went to PAX and totally wish I could have told you about all the cool stuff I saw and go to do and meet! Like Roosterteeth and the creators of Borderlands. So it made me miss talking to you about the cool nerd stuff so the other day I send him A text and my exact words were "Hey its Kelly. Can we talk? like the CIVIL ADULTS we are and the GROWN man I know you can be. And this may not even be your number anymore or you blocked me but either way I miss my FRIEND." he is a grown man and we are adults I see no problem in sitting down and talking and working it out. But apparently I insulted him? Friend yes I miss my friends which apparently is a crime and stalker like again. Yes did I accidently call him the next day, still getting used to my IPhone buttons. Tried to hang up as fast as I could did not want to talk to him like that I wanted to give him the time to respond and if he said no then fine so be it but NO he apparently couldn't talk don't know if he lost his hands or what but his gf had the nerve to call my bf with quite the tale. She is barking up the wrong tree. It's like mom came to the rescue wont let him say anything. Corey could really care less. He had no problem with me and Anthony talking and meeting up once a month to catch up. Thankfully he is a logical person.
I digress.
I have the freedom to type what I want on my blog. It is never meant towards any person because NO ONE reads it! I post it on my tumblr ( http://alwaysthequeensway.tumblr.com/). I type what I feel and get it out so I don't actually do something ridiculous. I never would, I am very passive its great. Verbally assault me all you want I will never go down to her level. I have some pride and I am a good person. Never did anything wrong to Anthony always treated him great like a friend. Do I like to talk a lot ? Yes unfortunately its a genetic trait in my family just ask my parents and my brother. I actually talk to people a lot less than I used to via text and what not. I got annoying during my Corey phase and I realized that so I don't bother people as much anymore I just let it go. Do I love to text random shit to people yes that is WHO I AM. My friends happen to love that part about me. Speak up if I am bugging the shit out of you I cant read your damn mind. If you are my friend you can tell me I'm being annoying ill listen to you it would not be the first time I have been told that. I have grown up quite a bit. Some people take a bit more cooking in the oven before they grow up but I like where my life is headed and just hoped you would have liked to have been a part of it.
Clearly I am also obsessed with him. I'm pretty sure all I could talk about was Corey when him and I hung out during corey and i's breakup to the point where it bugged him. I think if I were obsessed with HIM I would have been all over that much quicker than I did when corey and I broke up but I didn't because my brain was just corey and it was like word vomit. Im pretty sure OBSESSED people hunt the other person down and follow their life and DON'T leave them alone at all and never stop talking about them. I haven't talked about Anthony in long time because there was nothing to say about him or too him and I know nothing that is going on with his life where he lives what he's doing at work or if he's still in school. NOTHING. I figured after many many months everyone would have calmed the fuck down and could actually just sit down and talk but with certain people they will spin their little web around around and make me the bad crazy person and them the innocent damsel in distress. Apparently he can't stand up for himself? Like I said I know he is a grown man and that we could talk, he has his own voice. I never let him talk to me when his gf flipped her shit on me because it was ridiculous I said I was done and sorry that it had to end this way. last text from him was yeah me too. It is so easy to spin lies and make them sound convincing. My friends know who I am and I thought Anthony did too after 2 years of knowing me but who knows. My friends got my back and they know the truth so whatever his gf wants to say it is not going to get her anywhere. her prerogative. I sleep well at night.
I digress.
I know not many people, if anybody, reads this but it is more for me just to let things out and not have to talk about it all the time with people. Just a little therapy and I believe we ALL could use some. I love my boy he is great and supportive and I feel secure and happy with him. He makes me laugh every day. He may not be a romantic but I know he will always be there for me and when he hurt me I had never seen a guy so upset. He did not want to hurt me I could see the pain that it caused him just as much as me. What he did was totes wrong and he knows. He cheated on me once and he has learned. Yes cheater always a cheater yea yea well I took that chance being with him again and I couldn't be happier. We picture each other settling down in our house with our two fur babies. Molly the black or chocolate lab and Caboose (yes from Red vs. Blue) my corgi.
I digress.
Any who my new work schedule is great, weekends off. So I am home this weekend spending it with my parents and getting my hair and eyebrows done thank god. I Hop on sunday yay! breakfast is my faves. oh yeah Anthony totes introduced me to some amazing food I would never have tried ever and thanks to him I have widen my horizons on food.
Look I have a good heart. I am not trying to force my way into anything. I literally just asked if we could talk. I like to forgive people because we all have a LITTLE crazy in us but when it continues to escalate and I did nothing to deserve it then its hard to forgive. I hope you have a happy long life. (no sarcasm noted)
Too much violence in the world. WOULD YOU KINDLY take it down a notch?
yay video game reference.
This is a way ridiculous blog entry that's meant for me to just get off my chest. Not really important stuff to read. Up to you if you want to.
"If you see someone is trying to make you angry or upset, don’t react. It is not your job to make negative people happy."
I digress.
http://madxhatter42.blogspot.
re reading it totally brings back some memories before Corey and I dated. Basically job searching, being denied from vet school which is harder to get into than medical school, and dating Anthony.
I mean we had some great times dating then not dating and being "friends". But no really we were better off friends and just hanging out and fooling around no strings attached. I totally was in lust with him at first because well our chemistry was phenomenal but I knew it wasn't going to be more than that after awhile. We had a flirty personality with each other. It is what it is. He's very attractive and every girl he meets knows it and he is like a lady magnet. Every time we went anywhere it was all these beautiful girls hitting on him left and right. That's why I was shocked he even wanted to date me because I am just kind of average but we had a load of stuff in common. All of our nerd stuff and we both loved to cook well he did and did it very well and I loved to bake. It was nice to be cooked for. He introduced me to some awesome video games and if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have been as interested into going to PAX as much as I was when I went the past two times. And he was quite diverse in his traveling that he did growing up which was awesome and he has great taste. I do all the cooking now with Corey which is fine I have gotten a lot better. We just had a nice connection. When Corey broke up with me for a little bit and I went "Corey Crazy" and I will admit I was nuts but when people are really upset they do stupid crazy shit without thinking really. Anthony was going through a real rough patch and I was trying really hard to be there whilst I was going through my crazy rough patch. He wanted to hang out a lot and we did and such but it was different this time because all I wanted was Corey. He was being really nice about everything though. We were there for each other. Then corey and I got back together and Anthony wanted us to just meet in public which was fine whatever he wanted. We would meet up once a month mostly for breakfast and just catch each other up. We'd still text HERE AND THERE but not as much. He has a busy lifestyle. Then he told me he had gotten some help and had met a girl and he looked so much happier. He was so upset for awhile that I felt really bad for him. I hate seeing my friends in pain. I congratulated him and when we would meet up I would always ask him how him and the woman were and things were always great which was wonderful. He had really found someone special and it made me happy. And id tell him corey and I were great and we are. Then apparently his gf sees things in whole different way and flipped out on me via Facebook. Apparently asking someone what type of mattress they had, whilst my boyfriend and I were shopping for one is weird. I'm pretty sure I asked several people that question. Yes I laid on his bed ALOT, before you guys even knew each other, and his mattress is great because I LOVE pillow tops so I asked him the brand. THAT IS IT. I was not insinuating anything. Most people would see that as not a weird question. Then I told him about a funky dream I had about him, not a fantasy a weird ass dream. That's it I cant help what I dream. I've dreamt about my boyfriends roommate before that was worse. I dream about people who are in my life and I told him because there used to be a joke at Ruby's when my friends worked there with him about people thinking he was gay. In fact I joked about him with that when we just became friends him being my "gay best friend" and he thought it was funny. Obviously did not mean it, it's called a joke Some people just don't have humor.
I digress again.
Any who got bitched at and harassed by a girl I have never even met and who I totally supported Anthony on because he was HAPPY and that was IMPORTANT to me. Didn't realize she would end up controlling him and change who he is. He's happy awesome power to you but when people change in a relationship its really unfortunate. Sometimes love can blind us. I have lost more friends by people getting in relationships. And its happened again. I don't care if you marry her and bare her children, you are not the same person you once where to me. She literally is talking for you. When she told me to back off in a dramatic way I did without a damn peep. I said I got three day PAX tickets because I knew you would find that awesome because I know its something you would love to do one day and then I said Happy Birthday to you and apparently that makes me a stalker. I don't go to ruby's so I don't have to see you and I don't hunt people down to get in touch with you and I get blocked on Facebook. So for 9 months I could really care less then I went to PAX and totally wish I could have told you about all the cool stuff I saw and go to do and meet! Like Roosterteeth and the creators of Borderlands. So it made me miss talking to you about the cool nerd stuff so the other day I send him A text and my exact words were "Hey its Kelly. Can we talk? like the CIVIL ADULTS we are and the GROWN man I know you can be. And this may not even be your number anymore or you blocked me but either way I miss my FRIEND." he is a grown man and we are adults I see no problem in sitting down and talking and working it out. But apparently I insulted him? Friend yes I miss my friends which apparently is a crime and stalker like again. Yes did I accidently call him the next day, still getting used to my IPhone buttons. Tried to hang up as fast as I could did not want to talk to him like that I wanted to give him the time to respond and if he said no then fine so be it but NO he apparently couldn't talk don't know if he lost his hands or what but his gf had the nerve to call my bf with quite the tale. She is barking up the wrong tree. It's like mom came to the rescue wont let him say anything. Corey could really care less. He had no problem with me and Anthony talking and meeting up once a month to catch up. Thankfully he is a logical person.
I digress.
I have the freedom to type what I want on my blog. It is never meant towards any person because NO ONE reads it! I post it on my tumblr ( http://alwaysthequeensway.tumblr.com/). I type what I feel and get it out so I don't actually do something ridiculous. I never would, I am very passive its great. Verbally assault me all you want I will never go down to her level. I have some pride and I am a good person. Never did anything wrong to Anthony always treated him great like a friend. Do I like to talk a lot ? Yes unfortunately its a genetic trait in my family just ask my parents and my brother. I actually talk to people a lot less than I used to via text and what not. I got annoying during my Corey phase and I realized that so I don't bother people as much anymore I just let it go. Do I love to text random shit to people yes that is WHO I AM. My friends happen to love that part about me. Speak up if I am bugging the shit out of you I cant read your damn mind. If you are my friend you can tell me I'm being annoying ill listen to you it would not be the first time I have been told that. I have grown up quite a bit. Some people take a bit more cooking in the oven before they grow up but I like where my life is headed and just hoped you would have liked to have been a part of it.
Clearly I am also obsessed with him. I'm pretty sure all I could talk about was Corey when him and I hung out during corey and i's breakup to the point where it bugged him. I think if I were obsessed with HIM I would have been all over that much quicker than I did when corey and I broke up but I didn't because my brain was just corey and it was like word vomit. Im pretty sure OBSESSED people hunt the other person down and follow their life and DON'T leave them alone at all and never stop talking about them. I haven't talked about Anthony in long time because there was nothing to say about him or too him and I know nothing that is going on with his life where he lives what he's doing at work or if he's still in school. NOTHING. I figured after many many months everyone would have calmed the fuck down and could actually just sit down and talk but with certain people they will spin their little web around around and make me the bad crazy person and them the innocent damsel in distress. Apparently he can't stand up for himself? Like I said I know he is a grown man and that we could talk, he has his own voice. I never let him talk to me when his gf flipped her shit on me because it was ridiculous I said I was done and sorry that it had to end this way. last text from him was yeah me too. It is so easy to spin lies and make them sound convincing. My friends know who I am and I thought Anthony did too after 2 years of knowing me but who knows. My friends got my back and they know the truth so whatever his gf wants to say it is not going to get her anywhere. her prerogative. I sleep well at night.
I digress.
I know not many people, if anybody, reads this but it is more for me just to let things out and not have to talk about it all the time with people. Just a little therapy and I believe we ALL could use some. I love my boy he is great and supportive and I feel secure and happy with him. He makes me laugh every day. He may not be a romantic but I know he will always be there for me and when he hurt me I had never seen a guy so upset. He did not want to hurt me I could see the pain that it caused him just as much as me. What he did was totes wrong and he knows. He cheated on me once and he has learned. Yes cheater always a cheater yea yea well I took that chance being with him again and I couldn't be happier. We picture each other settling down in our house with our two fur babies. Molly the black or chocolate lab and Caboose (yes from Red vs. Blue) my corgi.
I digress.
Any who my new work schedule is great, weekends off. So I am home this weekend spending it with my parents and getting my hair and eyebrows done thank god. I Hop on sunday yay! breakfast is my faves. oh yeah Anthony totes introduced me to some amazing food I would never have tried ever and thanks to him I have widen my horizons on food.
Look I have a good heart. I am not trying to force my way into anything. I literally just asked if we could talk. I like to forgive people because we all have a LITTLE crazy in us but when it continues to escalate and I did nothing to deserve it then its hard to forgive. I hope you have a happy long life. (no sarcasm noted)
Too much violence in the world. WOULD YOU KINDLY take it down a notch?
yay video game reference.
This is a way ridiculous blog entry that's meant for me to just get off my chest. Not really important stuff to read. Up to you if you want to.
"If you see someone is trying to make you angry or upset, don’t react. It is not your job to make negative people happy."
But you never dated tho.....
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