Just getting it off my chest

You ever have those dreams that totally bug the crap out of you the whole next day? Like you literally can't stop thinking about it and you really wish you could because it was a stupid dream? Yeah I seem to have those now and than and they usually involve some sort of past that didn't end well and my subconscious just loves to think about it even though consciously I never think about it.
So last night I dreamt about my ex friend Anthony. It hadn't happened in quite awhile. I am gonna short hand the word subconscious to S.C. and conscious to C. because it's easier to type.
So I had this dream and I wake up like totally livid. It's like wtf S.C. why you gotta bring that shit up. It's been like almost three years get over it. Seriously because C. certainly has. So I delve deeper into myself to figure out why he pops up on occasion in my dreams.
Let's just say if therapy was free I'd jump right on that band wagon because I am no psychologist. So I think well I have lost many of friends to significant others whether the others were crazy or not. I'd like to think true friends wouldn't leave you unless their s.o. is like super cray and you hear back from them again when they break up or divorce. True Story. So in this case who knows. Maybe his particular case I had so much I wanted to say to him and never did. So maybe my S.C. is trying to work through what my C. couldn't? Either way its ANNOYING. STOP. It makes me so aggravated when I wake up and then I just keep thinking about it more and more like why and I don't have the answer so it just happens again.
I go to the Shaw's in Bath and hope to god I don't run into him or her or both for that matter. I am a passive aggressive person so I won't act like a child and make a scene but I wouldn't put it past her. Corey has seen them a few times in public but I haven't. We are moving to West Bath at the end of the year so I'm sure just more occurrences that I could run into them. And god forbid I would go up and say hi like a human adult I'd probably get like the third degree if she were with him. When I get my corgi and start going to the dog parks and what not I'll teach him to nip at the crazy shitty people. along with our future lab but of course labs are too nice for that behavior but corgis certainly aren't. They can have tude.
I wish my S.C. could put it all behind her but she just can't seem to which isn't actually surprising because I still dream about the friends I lost when I switched schools in 4th grade and 8th grade and S.C. totally misses them and hates it and even my college friends who don't really talk to me at all anymore. She thinks about them too. C. doesn't really maybe my college friends since that's more recent but S.C. is really depressing sometimes. I dream about my fears and my losses and Anthony was a lose. So no doubt he will keep popping up for quite some time because S.C. holds on way too long when C. is already over it.
I have never really had any guy friends at all so maybe she misses the break from all the Estrogen in my life for a little testosterone. Corey doesn't count. I live with him. Sometimes I wish we would have just started as friends and then maybe things wouldn't have gone so south when he started dating a girl. Definitely shouldn't have dated I guess. Oh well what are you going to do life goes on and things are moving along. S.C. may be stuck in the past but C. is looking towards the future on a daily basis.
Our goal is to move into the HOUSE by end of November and get Corgi around the same time. Oh man is he gonna be so spoiled. I look at toys and dog stuff all the time. He's totally gonna have a bow tie and nerdy gear and he is being dressed up for Halloween every year. Oh man he is gonna love me and hate me at the same time. I have been saving money up for it for awhile now. So I am ready. Thankfully working at a vet hospital gives me discounts and free preventatives. Your doggos should be on Heartworm Preventative and Flea/Tick all year round if you live in Maine. We have seen heartworm positive dogs up here that have not been in the South. May not be as many but they are bringing it up here. and heartworm also helps get rid of parasites so another plus.

And corey and I will have your first Christmas together in our house with a big tall tree! Hopefully if everything goes well. So far the land has not been touched because the house plans are still being finalized. And ill be moving into my last semester hopefully soon. Can't wait to be licensed. I love working with animals every day.
I am really enjoying Postcrossing. I have sent almost 30 now and have received about 25. I love it. It's so cool. I even had a lady send me like 30 free postcards just because she read my profile and enjoyed reading what she did. Felt like I deserved them I guess. It's not a super cheap hobby. It does cost 1.15 to send a postcard over seas. I have sent too many within the U.S.
I just had Sat through Tuesday off and the work week for me is already over. Next Saturday I leave and go on vacation for a week to East Grand Lake with corey. YAY relaxing vacation! I missed out last year but not this year not that I have paid vacation.
Anywho half the year is over and it hasn't been too horribly shitty.

Here are a few postcards that I really liked lately: