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A few days a go I reached out to someone I hadn't talked to in 4 years as we had a falling out because they started dating a crazy person so naturally there goes the friendship-not the first time this had happened. I had been blocked from all their social media outlooks so I thought why not text maybe wont even be the same number anymore could be someone else.
I said hello
they replied with who they were and asked if I had the right number as my number was not saved in there phone. I KNEW as soon as I told them who I was they would either block me or stop talking and lo and behold as soon as I told them who I was they stopped replying.
Saw that coming a mile away but I thought it couldn't hurt to try. Then this morning at 1 am I woke up and just was felt like even though they had probably blocked me I needed to say what I wanted to 4 years ago when I kept quite and just let it happen. I wrote:
"You know what no i'm not sorry I bothered you. Ive held it in for 4 years and thought it was better 4 years a go not to say anything but I wish I could have. And you have probably blocked me by now so this message will be sent to the wind which is fine actually. I finally get a chance to get it off my chest. Before everything I have never been more than nice to you and was there for you being supportive. And we had a lot in common and always had fun hanging out and chatting about games and food and what not. I have seen relationships change people and I have lost many friends to it. For me to be accused of such absolute ridiculous stuff and be called horrible names and literally threatened and corey being stalked down to get tattled on, which had nothing to do with him, you just took a side line and let someone else do the talking and that's unfair and really low. I was never obsessed with you. I think we all know I was obsessed with corey. Even when corey and I were apart and I was single and you were single I still wanted just corey. You were my friend that's it. nothing more. we are still together and I am happy and our family has grown. I wanted to reach out to see if maybe after 4 YEARS things had changed but clearly I was wrong. Im a good person with a good heart and a really awesome friend. We have a lot in common and used to enjoy catching up once a month getting food. I have no idea whats going on in your life but honestly hope things are well. I even saved the horrible crap she said to me after she stalked me down on my google blog which no one even knows I have and was practically threatened and every bad name for a woman to be called just in case she hunted me down and would have to get the law involved. and you just sat there not doing anything maybe even enjoying it I don't know but it hurt and was immature. im not a bitch for saying any of this its just the god forsaken truth. I'm not a shitty person and did not deserved to be treated like that. I could go on and on which I have but it wont be read anyways and its very therapeutic so..so long and thanks for all the fish."
I said hello
they replied with who they were and asked if I had the right number as my number was not saved in there phone. I KNEW as soon as I told them who I was they would either block me or stop talking and lo and behold as soon as I told them who I was they stopped replying.
Saw that coming a mile away but I thought it couldn't hurt to try. Then this morning at 1 am I woke up and just was felt like even though they had probably blocked me I needed to say what I wanted to 4 years ago when I kept quite and just let it happen. I wrote:
"You know what no i'm not sorry I bothered you. Ive held it in for 4 years and thought it was better 4 years a go not to say anything but I wish I could have. And you have probably blocked me by now so this message will be sent to the wind which is fine actually. I finally get a chance to get it off my chest. Before everything I have never been more than nice to you and was there for you being supportive. And we had a lot in common and always had fun hanging out and chatting about games and food and what not. I have seen relationships change people and I have lost many friends to it. For me to be accused of such absolute ridiculous stuff and be called horrible names and literally threatened and corey being stalked down to get tattled on, which had nothing to do with him, you just took a side line and let someone else do the talking and that's unfair and really low. I was never obsessed with you. I think we all know I was obsessed with corey. Even when corey and I were apart and I was single and you were single I still wanted just corey. You were my friend that's it. nothing more. we are still together and I am happy and our family has grown. I wanted to reach out to see if maybe after 4 YEARS things had changed but clearly I was wrong. Im a good person with a good heart and a really awesome friend. We have a lot in common and used to enjoy catching up once a month getting food. I have no idea whats going on in your life but honestly hope things are well. I even saved the horrible crap she said to me after she stalked me down on my google blog which no one even knows I have and was practically threatened and every bad name for a woman to be called just in case she hunted me down and would have to get the law involved. and you just sat there not doing anything maybe even enjoying it I don't know but it hurt and was immature. im not a bitch for saying any of this its just the god forsaken truth. I'm not a shitty person and did not deserved to be treated like that. I could go on and on which I have but it wont be read anyways and its very therapeutic so..so long and thanks for all the fish."
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