Time to rethink my life...at 26.
Life seems to be just full of ups and downs, lately it seems to be mostly downs for me. Financially my life has turned upside down and I'm broke, not like I cant afford to go out and have a drink like I cant afford freaking groceries or my medications. I just switched health care to Obama care because I am off my parents now and it isn't the greatest insurance. It will cost me $150 for my 90 day supply of Crestor which I cant afford so ill have to do 30 month supply for $50 a month. even then still expensive. My parents have decided to cut me off from any more help. Basically I have to sit down with my boss and tell her the situation; I either get a raise so I can stay there and continue my schooling so I can get licensed or if not I have to discontinue school and find a completely different job most likely one I will probably be miserable with.
It really sucks. I would hate to stop my schooling, I've been doing so well with it so far and I like learning all kinds of interesting things. If it wasn't for me having to use my tax money to buy a new phone this year I would have like an extra $800 in my account but unfortunately my phone cost a bit. I have to rethink my entire life so I don't end up on food stamps or something. Ugh this is so frustrating all because I decided to go to college, well probably too expensive college for my life. should have just gone a cheaper route. I wish I could redo some things but I can't so change it now.
Yesterday we had an emergency and a cat came in and ended up not making it. It was incredibly sad and heartbreaking. He was such a great cat and he did have congestive heart failure. He came in with labored breathing and panting and honestly the way the doctor approached it I would have done differently. I would have made sure the cat was stable before doing anything diagnostic. He should have been intubated way before she tried to do it when it was getting too late. It was the saddest sight watching this cat throw himself around trying to get air and he was obviously scared, he was dying. and fluid was filling his lungs and flowing out of his mouth. It was just gut wrenching. I started crying on the way home thinking about it:( Euthanasia is sad but its a gift to give to animals who are suffering to let them go peacefully. Having an animal crash and fight for its last breaths is not so peaceful. I mean maybe he wouldn't even have survived with a different approach but still.
Trying not to end it this on a sour sad note uh anything positive going on lately, uhm I don't really know actually. The house is on pause until he gets more prices so nothing there, work is same and yup so Have a good day I guess.
It really sucks. I would hate to stop my schooling, I've been doing so well with it so far and I like learning all kinds of interesting things. If it wasn't for me having to use my tax money to buy a new phone this year I would have like an extra $800 in my account but unfortunately my phone cost a bit. I have to rethink my entire life so I don't end up on food stamps or something. Ugh this is so frustrating all because I decided to go to college, well probably too expensive college for my life. should have just gone a cheaper route. I wish I could redo some things but I can't so change it now.
Yesterday we had an emergency and a cat came in and ended up not making it. It was incredibly sad and heartbreaking. He was such a great cat and he did have congestive heart failure. He came in with labored breathing and panting and honestly the way the doctor approached it I would have done differently. I would have made sure the cat was stable before doing anything diagnostic. He should have been intubated way before she tried to do it when it was getting too late. It was the saddest sight watching this cat throw himself around trying to get air and he was obviously scared, he was dying. and fluid was filling his lungs and flowing out of his mouth. It was just gut wrenching. I started crying on the way home thinking about it:( Euthanasia is sad but its a gift to give to animals who are suffering to let them go peacefully. Having an animal crash and fight for its last breaths is not so peaceful. I mean maybe he wouldn't even have survived with a different approach but still.
Trying not to end it this on a sour sad note uh anything positive going on lately, uhm I don't really know actually. The house is on pause until he gets more prices so nothing there, work is same and yup so Have a good day I guess.
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