What is it like?
I want to know what its like to date you and your entire self. Your heart your mind body and soul. Not part of you and the shit part of you and her and her heart. I just want you and i and no on else. The entire 9 months we dated it felt like part of you her and i. I want to be the only person you think of when you wake up and the last thought before you go to bed and everything in between. I know you thought about her all the time which is shitty.
I want to know what its like to be your number one and not your number two. Its so unfair we never got the chance to. I wish i would have met you at a different point in your life when it was just you and you actually had your heart so you could open it to someone else. What is it like for you to love a girl so much you would hurt someone else so badly to be with her? What's it like to be in a relationship with you where you are obsessed with the woman and would kiss her feet if she asked? She is the only one who has ever had all of you and felt that side of you. Is it incredible..i bet it is. Im jealous of her and its shitty hating someone and being jealous of them at the same time.
I want you all of you not part of you. Yet somehow i still fell in love with you even if you only shared part of you. I want you to open your heart to let yourself fall in love again. I want to feel the loving relationship we could have had.
It's not fair ill never get that chance...the chance for just us. That second chance every girl wishes she could get but i wish it not because we were in love and belong together but just to see what it would be like if it was just him and i. Would i be even happier? Would you be even happier? I dated 2 people when i dated you because shes all you talked about. I feel like it was so unfair for me. At first you did treat me like i was the only one but after a few months the more you talked about her and the more you saw her it was like i was a placeholder until you made a stupid decision and she was ready to date you.
I was Happy, we were happy but something was always missing..and it was you. I worried every DAMN DAY that you would leave me for her or do something really stupid but we were doing so well and you kept reassuring me so i continued to trust you. but really you were lieing to me and yourself about us. I just want us to have a second chance....:/ but i don't think it will ever happen.:( and i wish everyday, whether its 6 months from now or 2 years i just want that second chance not only for me but you as well. especially if you get hurt again.
Every damn day i hope.
I want to know what its like to be your number one and not your number two. Its so unfair we never got the chance to. I wish i would have met you at a different point in your life when it was just you and you actually had your heart so you could open it to someone else. What is it like for you to love a girl so much you would hurt someone else so badly to be with her? What's it like to be in a relationship with you where you are obsessed with the woman and would kiss her feet if she asked? She is the only one who has ever had all of you and felt that side of you. Is it incredible..i bet it is. Im jealous of her and its shitty hating someone and being jealous of them at the same time.
I want you all of you not part of you. Yet somehow i still fell in love with you even if you only shared part of you. I want you to open your heart to let yourself fall in love again. I want to feel the loving relationship we could have had.
It's not fair ill never get that chance...the chance for just us. That second chance every girl wishes she could get but i wish it not because we were in love and belong together but just to see what it would be like if it was just him and i. Would i be even happier? Would you be even happier? I dated 2 people when i dated you because shes all you talked about. I feel like it was so unfair for me. At first you did treat me like i was the only one but after a few months the more you talked about her and the more you saw her it was like i was a placeholder until you made a stupid decision and she was ready to date you.
Every damn day i hope.
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